The Pinnacle of Our Vacuous Culture

Kay sent me the following article today.

http://www.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/personal/08/26/o.divorce.dreams/index.html

The picture Ellen Tien paints is one of wretched meaninglessness. As I am about to post this to my blog I ask myself why? Why pass this along? Why spread something I would categorize as evil around? Why expose my friends to this mental dribble? Certainly one of my reasons is to illustrate just how far we have fallen into selfish decadence. That isn’t reason enough though. As a Christian I should present an opposing picture.

That picture is one of ever increasing joy. I can honestly say that each day my life is filled with more joy than the last. Is it the paxil talking? Is the fact that I have finally achieved the life I always dreamed of? Married to a wonderful woman with an awesome little girl? I certainly cannot deny either of those factors, but there is more to it than that. Every day I am trying to bring my will more into line with God’s will. I can feel myself putting off the old me that railed against my circumstances and dreamed of some far off better days. I can feel God’s peace.

Is this easy for me to say? Am I at some kind of plateau of peacefulness in my life? Not really. I have more work, and more stress at the office than during either of my breakdowns. I had to borrow money from my brother so we wouldn’t bounce checks this month. We’re about to try to have another child which of course brings up all kinds of stressful questions. Can we get pregnant? Can we afford it? Will Kay’s back hold out long enough? Through all of this I’m keeping my humor and I feel so good. Again is it the paxil or circumstances? Perhaps, but I tell you this - I believe I have a peace within me that goes well beyond anything a drug could provide and it is not dependent on circumstance.

Ms. Tien my prayers will be with you for some time to come.