I don’t think I’ve touched on my so called Obsessive Compulsive Disorder before. I say so called because while I joke that I have OCD I don’t think I actually do. I can be extremely obsessive when the mood strikes me though. When the OCD is kicking things have to be done a certain way and in a certain order. As evidenced by the semi-permanent state of disorganized clutter I live in the mood does not strike too often.
I am tempted to say that I want to tap into this apparent OCD more. If I did my house, office, garage, etc would finally be organized. The problem is that with right place comes right order. I can’t say what that order is, but I know when I’m in the middle of one. It takes very conscious effort to short circuit this route I must take. It goes something like this. To wash the dishes I have to collect all the dishes to the right side of the sink. This includes all the random coffee mugs, plates, glasses, coke cans and Topo Chico bottles around the house. While I’m doing the collecting I have to clean the counter tops. Then if the recycling or trash is full I have to take that out. This is why I can be in the kitchen for an hour and it looks like I’ve done barely a handful of dishes. I think this combined with what I talked about in my blog “My Mom Thinks I’m Lazy” explains what drives me fairly well.
I have to respect my limited human nature. I cannot do it all. The level of perfection my so called OCD requires is beyond my capacity to reach. It seems one slip though and soon things are spiraling out of control and I end up with a garage I cannot even walk through let alone park a car in. How do I find balance between doing everything and doing nothing?
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I like this. My work calls me OCD but my partner(ex?) whatever calls me a slob. At work I fill my time by scrubbing things. I cleaned the grum off the trash can the other day. And it's driving me nuts that I can't get the place spotless. Maybe after some time working there I can in pieces. I don't like to clean at home unless I have two days off. One day to clean, one day off. When I start cleaning...I can't start with dishes. If I do, I find more dishes later. I have to clean the sink out before I start. And when I clean the house...I move all the furniture...wipe the walls...sweep, mop the floor, etc. The questionable partner can "clean" in ten minutes, but when I do it, it takes two to three hours. My organization is horrible because of my "lazyness" but when I do organize it's emaculate (sp?) If I could I would have a place for everything and everything in it's place. WITH LABELS. Only problem is...I can never keep everything in it's place. I cannot stand housekeeping. It's the same room over and over and over. But because it's done everyday. It's already basically clean and just annoys me. My mom constantly called me lazy, but I know i'm not. I just can't "straighten up" so I don't clean unless I really have the time too. Sorry I don't have answers for you. But at least you know your not the only messy person out there with OCD :)
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